September 2010
3 posts
August 2010
3 posts
one of the reasons i really hate being home:
all of my regular friends have a significant other or are too hung up on finding that significant other that they cant do anything without them. so basically i have nobody to spend time with. fuck em.
thanks jess for not being one of those people!
wanting what i shouldn’t really sucks.
still waiting to say the L-word and really mean it….
July 2010
4 posts
I can’t get over this song! Katy B is a...
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unemployed, bored, epic failure
I've just finished my final for Human Physiology (attempt 2)...i hope i pass the class. I'm pretty disappointed in myself for not doing better...especially since i had more time to study, the class is easier, and this is the second time taking the class....three huge reasons i should have aced the class. But of course, me being the major fuck-up that i am (more often than not) i neglected to study some specifics...and managed to definitively know only 75% of the answers.
I'm also reminded (again) that i've got to figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life and how i want to go about it....i obviously cant just sit here and wait for something to happen (although, i wish it were possible). First i need to take GREs, attain letters of rec, then apply for grad school...within a deadline comming up in the next few months.
I really wish i had gone to an international school after high school. Given my need to travel and be away from home, it would have been nice to go to school abroad for 3-4 years. I mean...i had the qualifications...i just didnt take advantage of it. I wish my counselors had pushed IB graduates to go abroad...since that's why we paid so much fuckin money for that diploma.
My path has really gotten fucked up in the last 4 years. It started with me knowing exactly what i wanted to do, and how i was going to do it. Then i had to make changes because i fucked up in school. In the last 4 years i've had to make so many changes that i'm too busy thinking about the present and how to keep up, and forgot about the future. This explains why i'm stuck in this rut, trying to do everything at once and live up to my parents standards (which have been lowered a lot for me in the last 7 years....sad isnt it?). If anybody asked what my plan after college was, i'd have to say "i dont have a plan"....yeah, i have a goal...but i dont have a plan...plans are for winners that have everything go according to plan...as one can tell...im pretty much an epic failure (that's the Asian talking).
I've also got to get a job/internship so that i can add it to my grad school applications. Jobs/internships are tough to get...its so competitive and the economy is shit. Everyday i'm reminded by my parents that i need to get a job..blah blah blah. And i know its important, but after 10 attempts at jobs...i just dont give a shit anymore. Obviously, i dont have the "winner's attitude"...but i'm not winning...so i dont need to have that attitude.
I kinda understand why recently some people who get fired from a job or cant get one end up committing murder-suicide (maybe not the murder part)...they worry, they're stressed, pressured, and they may even feel like their useless. And right now that's the way i feel....dont worry, i dont plan on suicide =]. But i get it. Everyday my entire family goes to work; my sister goes to her 2 internships + school (which she's doing really well in...even if it is a fashion school). She goes to two internships...and she's learning a lot and her resume gets better and better. But me? Nobody will even give me a shot...BS science degrees suck. Every so often i get an interview...but im shit at interviews, so i go in, my confidence falls at the sight of an intimidating middle aged man who probably doesnt know how to drive his Benz, and i fuck up...hard. So im stuck sitting at home waiting for something to come a long...like an excuse to go shopping with the money i dont have.
Why dont UC schools teach people how to get a job...or how to survive in the world? That's what FIDM does (the job part). All i know are things i've read in books..equations, theory etc.....and that's kinda useless in life; if my parents were to throw me and my sister out on our asses and fend for ourselves....i'd get eaten alive and my sister would actually get pretty far.
How long does it take for college grads to get on their feet?..get a job...move out of the parents house...go to grad school...etc.
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Europe (cont'd)- France
Finally, France. It’s not untrue that the French have a bit of a distaste for Americans…or maybe English speakers entirely. Speak some of their language, and they’ll warm up to you immediately. At least know the basics, “hello”, “thank you”, “please”, “may i have…”, “where are the toilets”, etc.
That said, I...
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Europe recounted 7 months later
After Thanksgiving weekend with Roman, it was crunch time to write 3 essays. 1 on breast cancer. 1 on death during the Victorian era. and 1 debating the time of the fall of British power.
During that time I also enjoyed some fancy dress parties at the LCR, went to a some clubs; Po Na Na, Mercy, and Henrys Bar. Mercy was mostly top 40’s. Po Na Na was for Andy C, and Henry’s Bar...
December 2009
3 posts
November 2009
1 post
loving this song right now!
Rap + Dubstep = Plan...
October 2009
2 posts
…and i’ve also learned that boys here are only interested in skinny blonde girls.
fml.
Norwich
What i said to my mum, and now i will say to you
school is boring. i sit around my room and try to read, but these books are boring and tedious to read. Laundry is expensive. i dont party too much, maybe once every couple of weeks, its too expensive to party…i need to pay for drinks, club entry, and transportation…it adds up…but going for the music is really nice…not so...
September 2009
2 posts
UEA is Won Der Ful
The first day at UEA was really intimidating. International students arrived 3 days before UK students. The UC people and I had to go shopping for kitchen goods and foood. That was pretty fun, except for the fact that there was 10 of us and nobody could decide on what to do, and everyone stopped everywhere even tho there wasn’t anytime for it…i think that’s the frustrating...
God save the Queen!
I’ve landed in the UK a bit more than a week ago. After a long 10 hour flight over canada, greenland, ireland, and scotland, i was happy to move about the cabin and get through customs.
For my Fight Club aficionados, its true that in the pictures of the Aeroplane safety features, the characters are frightfully euphoric… While on the plane i managed to watch The Hangover—not as...
August 2009
3 posts
apparently break up texts are a no no. so how do you break up with someone that doesnt even pick up the phone? =/
rotting my brain according to plan
went to san diego for a bon fire
go to see steve aoki at san diego?
goal for england: kidnap harry potter!
July 2009
9 posts
Looking forward to the rest of the week!
Thursday night: Cirque Berzerk (http://www.cirqueberzerk.com/#/circus)
Friday night: Bong, Jess & Sabs come down to LA!
Saturday: hang out with Bong, Jess, Sabs, Jamie. Then birthday party at huntington
Sunday: chillax?
Had a good beginning of the week too!
just got back from a work out…i dont think i’ll be feeling my arms tomorrow.
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WatchWe need to play now!
Had a fantasmic weekend! …but…
eff this shit. im over it. i want to go home.
[random thought] i wonder what’s worse; being limited to the mind, the only safeguard in the world, or being unlimited to people you hope can be a safeguard of your words and thoughts.
so that’s sorely pessimistic…
Garden of Eden was blissful. I need to get back there soon.
Instant Replay Tape 1
I would have recapped this all in one large blog at the end of the weekend, but i’m afraid i might forget everything that has occured, so im just gonna post in parts.
Harry Potter and the 0.5 Blood Prince was great! I thought this movie was the best of all of them, mostly impart to CGI and the comedics. I was dissapointed with the length of Dumbledore’s death scene. But i give the...
Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince...
the people here in santa cruz are soo cool and soo funny that part of me can’t wait to go back to LA. i need to get away from such awesome-ness before i get attached. but until then, I’m looking forward to 1 amaaazing week! i really need this…i think…
I think i’ve seen Fight CLub more in the last 3 days than in the last year…
waiting for spicy chai to do my homework cuz she’s cool like that and im too lazy.
writing something
good weekend. i have a feeling it wont be over til i go home. haha
June 2009
3 posts
BFD 2009 @ Shoreline was out of this world! Originally it was all about the bands, but it quickly turned all about the Subsonic tent featuring Designer Drugs, Paparazzi, DJ AM, Steve Aoki, and Crystal Castles. THAT was fun.
Now im in a super dancy mood. Dancing in my head to Steve Aoki beats.
Im thinking about getting tickets for HARD summer in August; featuring Steve Aoki, Crystle Castles,...
Sex with Mom & Dad →
Im currently watching Sex with Mom & Dad on MTV. The girl has dedicated herself to a life of ‘purity’, but mom and dad aren’t cool with the idea. So they go to Dr. Drew to consult them and open up the topic.
WTF!!!!! If she doesnt want to have sex then good for her! Jeez! What kind of role models are mom and dad trying to be? Its great if they are available as a source...
Craziest time of the year!
Physics. Cell Bio. Disney
3 Finals
and so much more! how am i going to get through the next week when im so excited about everything that i’ll be doing over the summer? that’s all i can think about!
MAYHEM FESTIVAL!!!